Monday, November 28, 2005

First Impressions

Over the holiday I ended up running into someone I used to work with. We ended up having lunch together and I realized how much I missed this person. We are so very different, but our personalities mesh somehow and we always have really good talks and lots of laughs.

It wasn't always that way. When I first met S. I didn't think much of her. It wasn't that I didn't like her. I just didn't think much of her. I always forget my cardinal rule, "Don't judge a book by its cover". Or in this case don't judge someone by an initial meeting. You never know what's going on with people, they may not feel well, they could be having a very bad day or even a bad moment. You just can't take what you might think as a brush off personally. Nine times out of ten it has nothing to do with you. I think most of us have huge egos and we all tend to delve into solipsism from time to time. We think everything is about us.

I'm glad that S. and I got to know each other and got to be friends. I have to keep remembering my cardinal rule and also remember that most of the time "it's not me".

Otherwise the holidays were nice. Fairly non-eventful. A. and I had a nice time, visited with some friends, relaxed and did some things for our baby-the house. Still struggling with a nasty sinus situation that I refuse to go to the doctors for, but other than that things are fine. Except for being back at work. I wish I liked it here, but I don't and I can't imagine that I ever will. As an adult I know you do what's required to earn a living, and I am greatful to have a job. There's many that don't. I just have always felt there has to be something more than this, and I'm terrified that I will never find it or if I do I'll be too old to do anything about it.

I like to end these entried with an appropriate quote and the best one I can think of is "Don't judge a book by its cover". I can't located who this is attributed to. I found one item that said this is a proverb from the 1920s. If anyone has any information on this quote or proverb please let me know.

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